T-Plus 27 minutes.

Running very late at the Chemo center, still haven't begun. Busy here, many people with headscarves or shaved heads. Most older than me, but it's a little hard to tell sometimes who the family are and who the patients are. The Emend is kicking in and I feel very tired, napping sounds good. My bro, mom and R are here with me.
I did some research last night on the drugs I'm scheduled to get today and was reminded again how serious this all is. Gemcitabine and Cisplatin are highly toxic chemicals with sometimes severe and occasionally permanent side effects. The worst case scenario is very scary, especially for a musician. It's a trade off against the very real scariness of the cancer continuing to grow. To intentionally put poison into your body in an attempt to kill another poisonous growth is to turn your body into a battleground. While my immune system is trying to restore equilibrium, I will be immunosuppressed and susceptible to sickness and infection at a minimum for the next 3 months or so. Good thing I'm not working with kids right now.